*** Truth ***

Why do we let someone in our life become priority when we are just an option in their life..Sometime we know that for them we are just an option but we still keep on going with them ...so Why do we do that??

Because .........

we are crazy
      or
we love them so much

Truth...

We cant let go

Ansu ban k zindaghi nai rolaya...

Jis insan ko mai nai apni zindaghi samjha...apna samjha...ajj aus ki yaad bohut ah rahi hai tuh socha k ajj aus k barey meh likhu...mai aus se online mili thi aur hum same state meh dono rehtay thay..kuch dino ke badh mai nai decide kiya k mai aus se miluh....jab mai aus se milli mai bohut sharma rahi thi halkay larkay dost or larkiyon meri thi lakin coz mai aus se pheli dafa mil rahi thi tabhi shahid aisi feeling ah rahi thi...ahista ahista mai nai skool/college skip karna shuro kar diya aur woh mujhe se kabhi kabar ghar peh milnay ah jata tha jab mere ghar peh koi nahi huta tha...ahista ahista mai nai aus ko itna pasand karna shuro kar diya k mai har cheez har kaam aus ki marzi se karti..yahan tak ghar se nikalnay se phelay mai aus ki permission leti...saray apnay doston ko ignore kar ke full time aussey deti..senior year tha meray skool ka aur meh aus mai itni involve thi k i forgot about everyone..skool huti tuh aussay msgz karti ..ghar huti tuh aus se baat karti aur bahir jati tuh most of da time ausay bula leti..kyun k mai strick family se belong karti thi tuh bas woh mujhe se durr reh k meray ass pass phirta rehta kabhi car meh ya kabhi mall meh meray ass pass huta...yahan tak kabhi kabar meray ghar k bilkul samnay park meh huta tha wahan car park kar ke..phone peh batay karta aur mujhe batata k mai bahir hi karah huwa hu...aur woh isi tarha karta raha...mujhe kabhi kisi nai is tarha apni mohabbat ka izhar nahi  kiya..aur jab aus nai kiya tuh mai tuh jasey aus ke ishq meh deewani hu ghi...kuch months badh mera college start huwa aus nai kaha woh mujhe se milna jhata hai..woh mujhe se milanay aya aur aus nai kaha k ause apnay parents k saath pakistan jana hai...yeh suntay hi mera dil bohut khafa huwa kyun k mai aus ki itni addat hu gahi thi din raat aus se baatein karna...aur mai aus se itna pyar karti thi k mujhe darr lagta tha koi aussay mujhe se durr na kar leh...aus nai kaha aus ka jana zaroori hai kyun k aur joh bhai hain woh buzness k saath bz hain aur woh hi sirf ja sakhta hu...aus ki pupho(aunt) ki tabiat kharab thi jis ki wajah se aus ko aus k parents ko jana perha...woh chala gaya aur hum log nai email k zarye contact rakha...ak din mujhe aus ki email ahi aus meh aus nai likha tha " tum meri emails ka reply kyun nahi kar rahi..mai bohut pareshaan hu meri pupho(aunt) ki tabiat kharab hai and they are all forcing me k mai aunt ki beti se shaadi kar luh..m sorry mein aus se shaadi kar raha hu" that second i started crying n my hands started shivering mai bas jhati thi k apnay ap ko khatam kar doh..i couldnt take da pain...mai nahi reh sakhti aus k baghair...mai purih raat rootih rahi ...meri behan ko in sarih baaton ka patah tha aur aus nai mujhe roka k pagal mat banoh ...aus nai bohut samjhaya...woh dard woh takleef koi nahi samjhe sakhta...mai nai usko apni zindaghi samjha tha aur mai soch bhi nahi sakhti thi aus k baghair rehnay ka...mai nai aus email wapis ki k tum yeh kaya kar rahay hu mujhe tumhari koi email nahi mili is email se phelay mai apnay ap ko mar dalu ghi agar tum nai aus se shaadi ki...phir mai subah email check karnay k liye log in huwi tuh woh online tha..mai nai ausey msg kiya tuh reply aya k mai aus ki behan hu aur woh tumhari khatir ajj subah ki flight se wapis usa ah gaya hai aur aus nai meri pupho ki beti se shaadi kar lih hai aur meri pupho fotuh hu gahi hain....aur woh mujhe blame karnay laghi k mera bhai ki marzi se tuh yeh shaadi nahi huwi woh tuh ause karni perhi abbu aur pupho ki wajah se...mujhe yaad nahi mai nai aussay kaya kaha,,aur mai offline hu gahi...phir ausi din mujhe ak larki ka phone aya ghar ke phone peh aus nai meri kisi dost ka naam liya..aus nai mujhe poccha tum (mera naam liya) hu..mai nai kaha jee..tum teek hu..tumhari tabiat teek hai mai nai kaha haan...jab mia nai poccha k ap jessica hi hu tuh aus nai phone bandh kar diya..phir raat ko mujhe aus ka phone aya aur woh bohut burih tarha phone peh roh raha tha aur mujhe se maffiyan mang raha tha aur aus nai bataya k aus k dad ke restaurant meh joh larki kaam karti hai aus nai aus k zariye ghar phone karaya mera pocchnay ke liye...mai bhi bohut rohi aus k saath..mujhe aus peh gusa tha aus meh taras ah raha tha aur tabhi b mujhe aus se bohut pyar tha....jab kal aus nai phone kiya tuh mai nai aussey kaha k aus larki ko chor doh aur mujhe se shaadi karlo agar mujhe se pyar kartay hu..aus nai kaha mujhe sochnay ka time chiye...n mai nai aus peh phone bandh kar diya...mujhe aus peh gusa tha k issay sochnay ki kaya zaroorat hai kaya mai is k liye kuch b nahi...phir sham ko aus nai call ki n i told him itz over i cant make u leave dat girl..tum aus k saath khush raho..woh akeli aus ka koi nahi aussay tumhari zaroorat hai mat choray...mai tumhea chorti hu and i told him to never call me again...we stop talking and i started doing stupid stuff n he started doing all bad stuff just like me...then i called him after couple months and he was changed jus like me..i asked him y didnt you call me he said mai nai tumhari baat manih is liye call nahi ki...aus nai bataye k ab woh goriyon k saath rehta hai har raat new girl coz desi larkiyan bewafa hai..tum bewafa hu tum nai mera mushkil waqt meh saath nahi diya...i didnt knw wat to say to him to make him understand k woh ghalata keh raha hai...jahan tak saath deh sakhti thi diya aur jaha mujhe lagha k ab mujhe chalaya jana chiye tuh mai chali gahi...he smokes n he goes out with girls ...he doesnt believe in love n he blames me for ruining him n his life...ii told him i will change him bak to who he was...but last time we met he kissed me n i said i luv u n he didnt say anything bak...he was jus quiet... and he told me k woh har larki ko meray baray meh bata hai ...he got divorce from his wife...he comes home late at night ..woh larkiyon k saath phirta rehta hai aur i think ab tuh drink bhi karta hu gha...am i to be blamed for him??? should i call him again n try change him??

Life...

Sometimes we are so mad at others in our life that we don't see the good people around us...we dont see the positive side in our lives because we are so busy hating our lives...i wish that everyone can give someone they hate another chance..i wish people could look at the positive side instead of just hating life...

Be Happy with what you have before its gone :)